What I have learned today!!!

This morning I spent some time in Job, and I got convicted because I have had a hard time trusting God.  He used my time in the Word today to help me realize what I have been doing wrong.  I have been trying to fit God into a tiny box, but He is bigger and mightier than that.  I've been trusting God for the little things, so that now God wants to do some big things through me I am having a crisis of faith.  I now believe He can do the big things, too.

One of the problems I realized I was having today was for years I've been judged based on my appearance, and told I could only do so much.  It became so frequent that I started believing it myself.  That's why I've been struggling to trust God because He knows I can do more than that with His help and He wants to take me there.  God wants to take me beyond my limitations!  God sees potential in me that I struggle to see in myself.  I can trust Him because...

“God’s way is perfect.  All the Lord’s promises prove true.  He i…

"Do You Believe?"

This past week I watched the movie called, Do You Believe?  I took notes during the movie because several things stood out to me.  Here are some quotes I took from the movie:
"The cross is blood-stained, painful.  It loves and forgives and demands.  But what does it demand?  We profess it to this dark world.  And if you believe, then the question is what are you going to do about it?" -Malachi, played by Delroy Lindo
I, myself, have been struggling with this question.  I accepted Christ into my heart when I was a young girl, so I do believe in God.  My problem lately is that I'm having trouble Believing God.  This is a segue into the book I"m reading titled Believing God by Beth Moore.  How can I be the witness that God wants me to be when I'm struggling with my own belief system? What am I going to do about it?  I'm believing God.  He will put the people into my path that I can share Him with, and He will give me the words I need that they especially need t…

George Mueller: Faithful Servant of God, and great role model! (Part Two) What is Faith?

In the third chapter of An Hour With George Muller ( pronounced Mueller) edited by Charles Parsons, and George Muller (Mueller), Mr. Parsons shares George Muller's (Mueller's) autobiography titled Real Faith by George Muller (Mueller).

I have been struggling in my faith lately, so here are some inspiring quotes I've taken from it:
"'First: What if faith?  In the simplest manner in which I am able to express it, I answer: Faith is the assurance that the thing which God has said in His word is true, and that God will act according to what He has said in His word.  This assurance, this reliance on God's word, this confidence is faith... 'The province of faith begins where probabilities cease and sight and sense fail...Appearances are not to be taken into account.  The question is whether God has spoken in His word.'" Then Mr. Mueller goes on to explain how faith can be increased.  The bolded words below are what I need to work on with God's help:

George Mueller: Faithful Servant of God, and great role model! (Part One)

Recently I read an eBook on my Kindle called An Hour With George Muller (Mueller) edited by Charles Parsons, and George Mueller.

Biography of George Mueller
George Mueller has proved to the world the truth of Philippians 4:19 and he will always be remembered as the man who got things from God.  His testimony is an inspiration to Christians everywhere.  Three weeks after his marriage, he and his wife decided to depend on God alone to supply their needs--never again to approach people about them.  Now he felt led to relinquish his small salary as a preacher completely.  Wishing that all support be spontaneous, he put a box in the chapel for his needs; determining never to run into debt, and to get his needs supplied only by requests to God Himself.  This was October, 1830.  When he died, in March 1998, 68 years later, he had obtained from God more than any one else who ever lived--seven and a half million dollars.

Mueller was the son of Herr and Frau Mueller.  His father was a Prussian tax…
I've been so tired lately. Tired of the death that's been surrounding me, and my family. Tired of working non-stop only to be faced with the reality of death when I have any spare time. I've been writing a bunch of poetry only to keep me sane. If I stop, I'm afraid of what will happen in my brain. Will I snap? I feel like I'm tettering on the edge of an abyss, and if I'm not careful it's down I go.

I know God is with me even now, and for that I'm very grateful. Without him, I don't know how strong I would be. He is my strength, comfort, and reason for living. I'm just having a lot of "Footprints" moments in my life right now.

Footprints in the Sand

One night I had a dream. I was
walking along the beach with the Lord,
and across the skies flashed scenes from
my life. In each scene I noticed two sets
of footprints in the sand. One was mine,
and one was the Lord's. When the last scene
of my life appeared before me, I looked back
I've been busy on my knees a lot lately. I am getting some answers to the questions I seek, but the details of which direction I need to go in my life is still out of reach, and hazy.
It's been a while since I updated this page-one year!! I've been busy with work, and everything else going on in my life.

More to come this evening...